Metaphors for the month: At the edge of the abyss, choose joy

By Suzanne Wagner

Osho Zen Tarot: Existence, Creativity
Medicine Cards: Badger, Turtle
Mayan Oracle: Cauac, Manifestation, Dissonance
Ancient Egyptian Tarot: Three of Disks, The Chariot, Prince of Disks
Aleister Crowley Deck: Victory, Empress, Truce
Healing Earth Tarot: Man of Pipes
Words of Truth: Admit, Gapped, Self Image

October reminds us that we are here for a reason. When we recognize that we do belong here, then we must also acknowledge that so does all of life. We all have our part to play.

The Man of Pipes is the masculine equivalent of Mother Nature. He is the force that emanates from the stillness of the quiet places in nature. He is the protector of the natural world, the reminder that we have lost touch with our own silence within—and it is only through silence that you can know truth and feel the connections to of all of life. He listens to the messages of the birds, bees, flowers, trees, animals, plants and rocks. And he wants to teach you that when you stop identifying with your own ego and align with the subtler energies of nature, you become less self-centered and more a part of the global community. You will know that you are not alone and that you belong.

Stop denying what is right in front of you. Growth comes only from acceptance. Denial only creates more and more avoidance, lies and manipulation of the facts to cover up what is actually there. And the longer it goes, the more suffering it creates. Denial never works in the end.

When you pull away from truth, you separate yourself from the magic of interconnectedness that is the miracle of this world. When you do that, you become exhausted because you are fighting the flow, the natural order of this world.

The future is full of risks. You are going to feel uncertain of your choices. And that is okay because that is where you will discover what thoughts and emotions have separated you from your core truth. It is the pathway back to center.

You are standing at the abyss of the unknown. But there is no need to despair. And no matter what, do not give up. You stand on sacred ground. Life is not the barrier, you are! Life is beating down those barriers that you have erected in a desperate attempt to feel safe. But you can never be safe behind walls that do not allow you to have experiences.

Yes, experience is messy. Yes, it rarely seems to go as planned. And yet, it is a wonder to behold. You are on the ride of your life. Freedom is taking you somewhere. Don’t you want to know the end to this story?

Within all creativity there is an innate mystery. When you are an artist, you don’t often know what you are about to create. The creation moves through you and you become one with the flow of infinity. To truly create, you have to abandon yourself into the ecstatic dance, life itself, and let life move you.

Energy has no form or structure. Yet all forms and structures come out of that energetic pull. The energy flows. It is your intention that makes it look and feel the way it does.

This month you are being asked to be open to what wants to be expressed through you.


You cannot control all aspects of your creation. You do not possess it. But it often possesses you. The ultimate in creative expression is when you form a union with the divine, the mystical, the unknowable. Then your creation can become one that impacts others in powerful ways. And then your effort becomes an embodied blessing of the universe. You are always growing something. Make your choices and actions ones of joy.

One thing is for sure: The more you are connected to your creative self, the more you know there is something tangible in the ethers that is guiding and supporting your evolution.

No matter what, this month, love what you do. And be mindful as you do it. Then whatever you are creating, it will have a spark of something special that makes a great difference.

Suzanne Wagner is the author of books and CDs on the tarot and creator of the Wild Women app. She lives in California, but visits Utah frequently.

This article was originally published on October 1, 2018.