A tarot reading for CATALYST readers.
—by Suzanne Wagner
Osho Zen Tarot: The Burden, Totality, Experiencing
Medicine Cards: Frog, Buffalo
Mayan Oracle: Cauac, Cib, Akbal
Ancient Egyptian Tarot: Four of Disks, Ten of Disks, Nine of Wands
Aleister Crowley Deck: Princess of Swords, Dominion, Worry
Healing Earth Tarot: Ace of Crystals, Eight of Rainbows, Two of Rainbows, Grandmother of Wands
Words of Truth: Integration, Dullness, Conflict, Female
This month’s theme seems to be the energy of the trapeze artist suspended in the void, reaching into thin air and trusting something of substance is on the other side.
Life is often like this. Trust with no guarantees. Sometimes it is more pronounced. October is one of those times.
As we come upon the October 18 lunar eclipse in Aries, we are being asked to look at our attachments to people, things, beliefs and circumstances. The word “attachment” means “to nail.” To what are you nailing yourself? It is very difficult to not long for things of great joy and pleasure from the past. But it is the nature of this world to create change. What you try to possess actually possesses you and, if held onto for too long, becomes toxic.
But letting go makes us feel vulnerable. It causes us worry and the desire to control others and our circumstances. In those moments I remind myself that when I am in a place of expectation, I cannot see opportunities that present themselves.
How can we enjoy every moment and yet not be attached to if it stays or goes? This is the ongoing struggle we each experience in life.
I have found that the universe gives me people and situations for periods of time and when I have learned the lessons, those energies naturally go away. This can be frustrating. But it has happened so many times that I accept it as the nature of all things.
As I grow, my connections with others adapt and shift. Each of us has gifts to share. No one has all the answers for anyone. We might have precious moments of clarity but ultimately each of us is on our own unique journey.
We can become an awakener at any moment to anyone who is ready for what we offer. But we cannot control those moments or what others will do with our words and actions. It is up to each of us to walk with clarity and integrity, with an open heart, and peaceful spirit.
You cannot totally understand another’s perspective. You can have a glimpse into their reality but they are walking a path unique to themselves. For moments in time we walk that pathway together and then inevitably we part. In those moments of loss and grief I remind myself of the beauty and joy that was shared and I hold it dear in my heart. But I allow that person and situation to be like a hummingbird that needs to fly and be free. Even my love can become a cage that does not allow a soul to find autonomy and self-worth.
When I look within, I know that I want that person to feel as full and as powerful as they can be in this life. I do not want them to feel they need to take care of my feelings. I am here to take care of my feelings.
When love is shared from a place of respect and honor, the old patterns of co-dependency and neediness dissolve into the place of stable groundedness where compassion is the key, love is the door, and presence is all that is required in the moment.