Be your own source

By Suzanne Wagner

Osho Zen Tarot:  Schizophrenia, The Source, Sorrow

Medicine Cards: Grouse, Ant, Hummingbird

Mayan Oracle: Dissonance, Adventurer’s Quest, Complex Stability

Ancient Egyptian Tarot: Ten of Swords, The Hierophant

Aleister Crowley Deck: Abundance, Dominion, Princess of Wands

Healing Earth Tarot: Man of Shields, Ace of Crystals, Ten of Feathers

Words of Truth: Sacred Fun, Brilliance, Pushing, Domain Shift


There’s a whole lot of Capricorn going on this month. With Pluto (the planet of death, rebirth, transformation, and change), Saturn (the planet of hard work and struggle, the lord of karma, and trials and tribulations), Jupiter (the planet of expansion, money, love and abundance) and Venus (the planet of love, beauty, harmony and negotiation) all in the melancholic, dark, cold, bitter, dry sign of Capricorn, expect a good swift kick in the butt to all things that have been tragically stuck and frozen in the places where humanity fears change.

Jupiter, the largest planet, is ready, willing and able to force that entrenched dragon who’s hoarding all the gold out of the castle’s dungeon and into the light.

As that begins to happen, on December 2-3, there will be one very pissed off dragon.

Clearly this is a metaphor for all the drama as we move towards the Saturn/Pluto conjunction on January 12, 2020. Things have been astrologically frozen in winter for a long time and while the slow planets are not in any hurry to move, Jupiter is a fiery source of energy that is going to melt those glaciers (just like what’s happening for real in this world) and the ice will move much more rapidly down the slope. Such rapid change can cause major destruction if not prepared for in advance.

Jupiter is not super happy in Capricorn and feels a bit displaced—maybe similar to a woman dressed in leather, with spiked purple hair, torn hose and Goth boots walking into a country club setting.

In this position, Jupiter’s agenda  is to shake up the establishment,  shatter the norms and shock those with sophisticated tastes right out of their comfort zone. Over the next few weeks and months, those Goth boots are going to do some damage to that old-school control.

All this unraveling may not happen exclusively in December. But know that by the end of 2020, you will be remembering my words.

Venus, the planet of what we love and value, will be right between the two “bad boys” of the zodiac, Pluto and Saturn. Foundations that have had cracks growing and expanding for a long time are going to crumble. Venus will enter the friendly sign of Aquarius on December 20, and that should help the holidays out because Venus in Aquarius loves to do the “meet and greet.”

But we can’t forget the eclipse in Capricorn on…wait for it…Christmas Day! It is going to be an intense holiday season.

My suggestion is to keep it short and sweet. Hanging out too long will make all those unresolved issues too obvious and uncomfortable.

January 2020 is no joke and everyone has to be ready. Start preparing now.

Stepping out of the astrology and taking a look at the cards, we discover that we are continuing the back and forth of emotional intensity; the drama does not let up.

The way through is to be your own source and connection to higher law and order. Because right now we are not in one world but two worlds, and they are pulling and pushing each other apart.

That dismantling needs to be felt and honored. We each need to feel the pain, sorrow and suffering that is being inflicted upon so many life forms at this time. Yes, we actually need to be in pain in order to change and do things differently.

The word that stands out this month is “dissonance.” When you create sounds that are disharmonious and unsuitable, the tension and clashing of those sounds can be so uncomfortable as to make one unconscious and pass out. There is so much emotion that is playing out loudly in our world that some people and life forms are collapsing under the strain of attempting to make sense out of cacophany.

Some things will never come into alignment. The continued forceful application of opinions as facts will just manifest more suffering.

The “thought universe” is attempting to control the physical world. But that is not realistic. The only choice is to confront confusion either in yourself or your world.

The Ant reminds us that patience is the way through. Patience is natural when you are prepared. If you are even slightly prepared, you worry less when things hit hard. You have some wiggle room; things are workable. Life is less scary.

Everything in the cards reminds us this month to move. The best ways to integrate huge waves of emotional energy are through dance, exercise, any kind of movement. If you refuse to move with the spin of the physical world, then the spin wreaks havoc on your mind and thoughts. If you are on a sacred path, your vision is clear. If you are sidetracked by the confusing mental projections of others, you will tend to fall into the unresolved issues of your past.

We are witnessing huge violations of great principles of life. This is a form of desecration. There has been a violent disrespect for life itself and the consequences are painfully obvious.

I suggest engaging in wholehearted, life-affirming activities, perhaps with friends and family,  to counterbalance that energy. I personally am planting trees—five trees for every member of my extended family. I need to actively do something useful. I hope you, too, want to do something to help this world.


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This article was originally published on December 1, 2019.