April 2019 Metaphors

By Suzanne Wagner

Osho Zen Tarot: Ice-olation, Silence, Change

Medicine Cards: Mountain Lion, Squirrel

Mayan Oracle: Akbal, Cimi

Ancient Egyptian Tarot: The Hierophant, Seven of Wands, The High Priestess

Aleister Crowley Deck: Oppression, Love, Princess of Swords, Knight of Cups

Healing Earth Tarot: Fool, The Moon, Nine of Wands

Words of Truth: Overview, Intimacy, Magic, Meditation


As isolation continues to divide the world, a stone-cold silence underlies any attempts at breakthrough or change.

With separation, conversations cease. There is no “coming together.” Compromise is not possible.

You can feel it in the patterns all around you. Those who hold a position are unwilling to shift in any way. Labels fly around in people’s heads even if they are not saying them outwardly. It creates a stilted silence based on unbending entrenchment of being right.

In the cards this month,  many types of “death” are stalking us.

Don’t panic. I mean this as a metaphor. The only real answers are those found deep in the womb of self. The only doorways that open are those that bring you into intimate connection with yourself.

Possibilities are swirling around in the dreamtime. But you have to go into that dreamtime, grab them and bring them into the physical world.

Humanity’s latent potential for goodness is hidden away in darkness because of fear. That fear separates you from your highest purpose and self. Your idealized view of humanity seems to be dying in the dysfunctional chaos of this moment.

If you are lost in the negative side of Akbal, you will feel depressed and anxious, and unable to see how self-judgment is amplifying your feelings of separation.

Remember, belief systems are illusions to begin with. There is a treasure that awaits when you are willing to embrace the darkest part of yourself. That is the next level of growth that is needed at this time.

Death is a natural part of life. When you fear death, you have an insatiable need to control others. When you fear death, you resist what life is attempting to show you. When you struggle, you are pushing against the harshness of the reality attempting to break down the rigidity of your own beliefs.

Regardless of what you want, you are beginning to see humanity’s incessant need to control the world as a reflection of human arrogance. You may believe that you know how things should be. But the reality is that they are not that way. They are not following along your projected plan at this time.

So what are you going to do?

You can die fighting or surrender your perceptions of right and wrong. They no longer support you the way you think. You’ve outgrown such childishness. It is time to see the world with the eyes of an awakened adult.

When you really surrender, you will create a vacuum for something new to come in. Until then, nothing else will come into the space because that space is filled with your ego’s projections, needs, validations and desires.

You keep trying to unlock the same door with the wrong key. You need to (metaphorically) get out of this room, get out of this old house, leave this old town, and make your way to a new country. The “real” answer is “out there.”

The more we hold on to our notions of how things “should” be, the more painful the death process. Just because you can see an external imbalance does not mean you can impose your idea of balance on others.

Alliances cannot give you what you need to let go. You have to go within, alone, and discover the secret that you are supposed to uncover.

The Fool lives at the edge of aliveness, unafraid of the death that awaits and fully present with what life is offering. The Fool can help you move beyond victimhood.

Fools step off the cliff into the abyss because they know there is a way beyond the known. Wise people plan for such moments unafraid.

Safety is never a guarantee in life. Only when you are willing to live at the edge of life and death can you be completely honest with yourself and others. Love yourself enough and you will  come from a place of aware preparedness.

The fearful unprepared person is a hoarder, stockpiling things they believe will ward off death.

If you hoard your thoughts, you fear being confronted with the truth.

If you hoard your love, you fear rejection from others.

If you hoard beliefs, you fear discovering that you have placed faith in things that are a lie. You fear making choices that will justify, validate and expose your own insecurities.

It’s time to lead and not care if anyone follows. If you care if others believe you, you are still operating in ego. That is never the way to true power. Only when you know with the conviction of your own heart should you ever take action.

The responsibility of leadership is to tell the truth. You become the example that you wish to manifest in the world. If you cannot do it with integrity, no one will believe you anyway. Never let yourself be tricked into believing that nothing else has validity except the ideas you have created by yourself.


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This article was originally published on April 1, 2019.